Daddy where were you? Daddy why did you leave us? Daddy why did you let me grow up alone? Daddy why did mum play a role of a mother and a father?
Daddy where were you? Where were you when I won my awards at school? Where were you when mum were was struggling to cope with my behaviour? Who was I supposed to turn to when my relationship with mum broke down? Where were you when I needed reassurance, to be told that I was beautiful, to be thought about my self-worth and self-confidence, Daddy where were you?
Daddy why did I go through life alone? Why am I still wondering how life would have been like with you in it? Why was I insecure, why was I confused about love? Why did I find it difficult to believe that a man could love me? Why did I believe in marriage but yet comfortable with the idea divorce? why did I feel like this? Why weren’t you there? How could you? Daddy why was I forced to become my own man but yet expected to act like a lady?
Daddy where were you when I passed my driving test? Where were you when I graduated from university? Where were you when I got my first career? Where were you when I got married, Daddy where were you when I became a woman?
Daddy you absence really hurt me! Your absences almost made me question the value of love, your absence almost dictated my relationships with people, you absences almost shaped my trust, your absence almost shaped my future.
Daddy I am independent, Daddy I am confident, Daddy I am intelligent, Daddy I am loved, Daddy I do not resent you, Daddy I do not hate you, Daddy I forgive you, Daddy I love you , Daddy I love you because my father in heaven loves me.
Anonymous, Hampshire UK
